torsdag 6 september 2012

everything is an experience

Sleeping with the light on tonight

Godnatt xo

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I am

My second home

Wetseason Thailand brings out more than silence and stillness. It takes a while to get used to that state of Being. I've spent a week on an island in clouds and rain which naturally forces you to do just that -To Be (especially since there is not much more to do). I'ts been lovely and relaxing and combined to that I've had the privilige to catch up with an old friend, a friend that was a part of my first backpacking trip ever -8 years ago -in Thailand. Meeting someone from that long ago brings up to the surface how much we all change, and maybe that's nessesary to put yourself and humanity in another perspectives.

Today I am in between. I'm in a small "village" callen Ban Phe. I've spent the boring part of the day in a minivan and the beautiful part with my thaimum! We met in tears of happiness and made the most of eachother for a few hours. I am living local life but no spare beds so staying alone in a hostel close to her sons "shop" (they provide the people with toilets and sell a few garmets (this is also where they sleep). Again, I'm all alone here (not even staff) in a dorm on a matress on the floor. I've got the key to the place, free coffee and wifi. Tired as but maybe staying awake to try to deny or avoid the possibility that I might share the room with smaller creatures on several legs. What else can you expect when you pay 150 thb (30 kr) for a night?

Tomorrow morning, after some time with thailfamily, I'm heading to Bangkok. I will stay in a beautiful hotel in Sukhumvit, where I've been a cpl of times before, to wake up on my birthday on saturday in a nice bed with a nice breakfast. After that I'm off to Chiang Mai on a nighttrain to then start a massagecourse on monday. The course is for 1-3 weeks and my intention is to stay the whole time.

After I'm certified in Thaimassage I'm going back to Bkk to grab that sweet secret of mine and enjoy every second with him.

Until then, mission is;
To find the balance between my body and soul. To create a space for my soul to be comfortable in my body. A year of focus on spirituality and personal growth that I have forgotten about my physical being.
So now, a 100% Allytime.

See you later beautiful souls.
Remember, regardless if you think you can do it or not, you're probably right! Keep flying!

xoxoxoxooxo

fredag 31 augusti 2012

eller?

Redo... ? What happens just before you're abt to leave? You start to realize how beautiful your life is at this exact moment, in this exact place, in this exact time.
Even though I know with my whole existence that I did what I had to, I am where I m supposed to, it still huuuuuuuuurts!
Well, regardless, we are always in power to make new decisions, nd nz will still be there for a while longer.

September is magic and transforming. It will change things, it will change you. Be the change.

Thailand is lovely, a bit rainy. 30 hours after I left wellington I ended up in the arms of Kerran, who turned out to be here at this same time. So, for u who doesn't know it, we were here together 8 years ago, so this is a bit of an epic reunion.

30 degrees, nd totally quiet. We r on koh Chang with not more than -looking at our resort- the staff. It's nice.

Missing Gigi nd other ppl, I left spring nz for wetseason Thailand. (What the hell was i thinking?)
Now breakfast before the thunderstorm starts -paaah!

Love nd rain xo xo

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lördag 25 augusti 2012

Presence

Sista dagarna i wtn. Totalt redo.
Nan som vet na volontar/wooffing I thai, let me know <3

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Kiwis and Swedes for sale

LOVE AND GRATITUDE min ROHAN!

Only one of us took the flight today. I will miss u till the end and I will love you forever.

Today was beautyful
Goodbye Holloway Rd, living foodlovers, family and loved ones.
My last few days will be spentd in Hataitai with mon cheri, G.
-Everyday I'm falling in love with you again.

"One and one is two, There's one of me and one of you" -we belong in love / Puss

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onsdag 22 augusti 2012

The last days of New Zealand

Ready. So ready. 
For the first time, I am in this moment. And will leave this place, with nothing else but pure love. Everything has come to an end and I accept every separation as it is. No attachments, no sadness -just peace. I surrender. 

Even though this is the place I most refer to as Home, everything is now nothing more than memories, maybe still alive, but in a different time and-, or in another dimension than this new precious moment. 



Spring is coming to Welly and you all know how it feels like when you see the sun for the first time in ages. It takes me to a place within myself where I can barely control my energies, which carries me to places I am totally unfamiliar with. 
I didn't just catch the sun for the day, I also caught the sunshine of my life. 
Everybody, say hi to G! 

We change the world Lemon! 

A bowl of smiles to bring sunshine to your day <3 

Inget Brisbane, ingen Roh, inget Byron Bay, inget Australien (Jo, Sydney i en timme.. :P  ). På onsdag lämnar jag mitt NZ å flyger till BKK Flyg nr 22 (?) å Bangkok nr 6. Jag börjar snart refer to myself as halfthai! 
Räknar dagarna till återföreningen med min Thaimamma -PAO! <3 

Nån som ska till Thai? Kommer hänga runt där i några månader (?) som det ser ut nu. Har lite uppdrag att utföra. Ses där? 

Mer historier sen. Nu måste jag till ambassaden å söka Visum. 
Tchauuuuu, Au revoir, hasta la vista, até amanha! 

Kärlek. 




onsdag 8 augusti 2012

My french community

Oj oj, det går inte undan med skrivandet.. Man kan ju undra varför, jag har ju inte direkt ett fullspikat schema med jobb, men på nåt sätt fylls dagarna med så mycket andra intressanta upplevelser. Det bästa är när jag och Ind 4 år, tillbringar dagarna tillsammans å gör massa roliga svenska barnsaker. Typ läser Alfons, ser på Pippi, dricker fluffy (barnvariant av fika) eller hoppar mellan våra fyra soffor.

Det har tagit mig 6 månader tills jag äntligen anslöt mig till ett gym, alldeles i lagom tid tills det är dags att bege sig av mot nya utmaningar. Rädd för commitments? Ja, dom säger det. Skönt är det iaf. Även om det bara är för en månad.

Så, snabb uppdatering!
Efter en helg på en farm i Otaki full med meditationer, yoga, green smoothies och Higher taste -mat fann jag mig själv i ett balanserat, lugnt tillstånd, helt likgiltig till vad som komma skall, helt i tillit till, det jag väljer att kalla universum.
Peace..

-Men... Vad hände sen? I en hysterisk separationsångest från hela min existens här flyr jag fältet för att orka bearbeta den Letting-go process som för tillfället slukar oss alla och måste genomgås (jag stannade för länge, nu gör det för ont att lämna)..
  Vi är 7 (?)(har tappat räkningen) personer +katt, som bor tillsammans, alla på väg mot nya äventyr i nya delar av världen (även katten). Ingen tycks veta vart egentligen, vi råkar bara alla ha biljetter ut ur landet under samma vecka -av en slump, utan påverkan av varandra.
Kat flög till Japan för att lära barn engelska, jag och Roh flyger till Brisbane för att antingen fortsätta med eller utan varandra till Byron Bay (Aussie), Bali, Thailand eller gå skilda vägar åt Asien/Usa. G och R flyger till UK för att sen backpacka i europa och slutligen slå sig till ro i Ecuador. W, underbara W, min vän, min familj, min Guru, stannar i krokarna men flyttar ut på landet för house-sitting i några månader (om vi hade sånt i Sverige!).

Ecuador... En community där.. Är det till Ecuador jag ska? (Ida, Kerran, is this a sign?!).
Ja, ni hör ju förvirringen. Herregud.

Så.. -Ally sökte nytt. Jag öppnade mig för en annan tårtbit och halkade in i den franska communityn i Welly, uppslukad av fransk humor, Ca va Ca va, Crepes, Crepeskungar och försöker nu hitta min balans mellan de två världar jag pendlar mellan innan det är dags att sätta sig på flyg nr 22 (?).
Var ska jag lägga min tid när jag vill vara överallt hela tiden?

Slänger upp lite bilder så får vi se vad som hänt tills nästa gång.
Så until then

I BELIEVE IN GHOSTS
We'll be together with a roof right over our heads,
Is this love Is this love Is this love Is this love that I'm feeling? 

Wonderful G. I just wanna grab you and make you mine!
^^

:) 


Au revoir! (Kurtan! Jag tränar min franska!!)