Sorry for being away lately. Wellington is embracing me with it's love, it's people, it's happenings and opportunities. I did the right thing coming here, thankful for being connected to my intuition and listening to signs (!). I could so see my self here for a longer period of time but as things are changing along the way, so does one self. Haven't managed to get another job and this casual one is not paying me enough/giving me enough hours. Rawfoodhouse is great and I am surrounded by other gipsys, all the same, fully focused on selfdiscovering and in search for a higher level of happiness which we all believe can be found within us, regardless of where you are at, who you're with, how much money you've got and so on. But even the house is changing, people moving on to new places and there are big energyshifts, both in the house, the ppl here and in me.
Another course in The Art of Living (
www.artofliving.com) was on a cpl of weeks ago which I participated in. Very different from the previous one. First one was full with so much laughters and joy, observing myself and my ego with a sense of humor, while this one was more about deeper fears and discovers. Although, even more than the last time, I felt a stillness in my mind and a freedom in my heart. And the biggest thing of it all, I disconnected to things that are not serving me anymore, noticed as I caught myself dreaming abt the future with 100% focus on me, not being attached to anyone or anything.
So, one more time, I woke up one morning and felt that I am on the go again. After someone asking me if I am about to leave, I realized that I had spent a weekend taking photos of everything I passed, even the smallest little bush, as if I was never about to see it again. Is this the backside of traveling? Never stay for too long... Could be dangerous if someone's expecting something from you.... Hmm.. Trying just to observe the thoughts, cus there is no need to judge them as good or bad, right or wrong I guess.. But interesting.
Anyway, I have fallen in love with the people here and the life I live in Wellington.
As it seems, I will go up to Auckland soon on a silent meditation retreat in a temple (no talking or interacting with anyone for 10 days). Insane but imagine what a revoulution in yourself after complete isolation from impressions. The only thing you have with you is your mind and your soul. No music, no pens and papers, no books, no excersising.. Just absolutley nothing but your own being. Whow! Scary as, but at the same time, tempting as.. :) Vipassana..
Have met these amazing new friends, swedish ppl (there are not many here) as well, and it is amazing to connect to someone with the same cultural background, being so far away from everything u refer to "normal". Vi kan skratta, klaga och förstå på en egen nivå :)) Älskart!
Now, time for saturday night happenings. Nothing.
:)
xoxoxoxoxo love xoxoxoxoxoxo