Back in Bangkok

The land of angels, the great city of
immortality, various of devine gems,
the great angelic land unconquerable, the land of nine noble gems, the royal city, the pleasant capital, the place of the grand royal palace, the forever land of angels and reincarnated spirits,
predestined and created by the highest devas.
Hello Bangkok!
Inge mer khaosan, fortfarande utmattad sen sist. Nu provar jag nya vingar, nastan, -nytt hotel i Silom, valdigt central. Ja, sitter tillame a observerar skytrain fran mitt hotel. Nastan lika legendary som havsutsikten soderut.
Ar i chong nonsi, har finns min favocurry runt hornan men far se om det blir aterbesok eller nat helt annat.
Tog 20 timmar drygt a ta sig hit. Taget var bara en timme sent denna gang! Skont!
Hors sen da, nu check in xo

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Streetlife

I don't know what it is with haadrin and Kohphangan. This is not really a place in my taste, yet I tend to come back and get more or less stuck when I'm here. Most of the people come here to drink buckets of booze, drink mushrooms-shakes while wearing facepaint and clothes that makes you think you are a psycadellic drug yourself. The tourism, or maybe the category of tourists, ofc makes the local people to act towards you like you are not more than a stoned dollarbill, here to fool around and not look after either yourself or the island. So it takes a little while until you get to know the people that lives here and until they respect you as an "ordinary" being with the best intentions and the interest to actually get to know them and become a part of their lifes, if even just for a while.

I'm getting there and I can happily say that I have a good connection with many people here which makes it -again, never lonely or boring.

What I admire about Thailand and the thaiculture, all possible because of the warm climate, is the streetlife. Everyone is sitting outside their shops, whatever they are, sometimes in complete silence just observing the quietness, sometimes sharing food with each other. Even the kids (very small ones) are free to walk around by themselfs, in complete trust that someone will have an eye on them and taking care of them.

Being more of a "local" (if even just temporary) the choices of what and where to eat always leans towards the familyplaces and the more simple, and in my opinion, genuine options. Eating homecooked food from plasticbags, sitting on the pavement next to a limping streetdog, trying to communicate with a thaichild and being part of the street-lifeculture is in my favourites.

Here comes a few photos of, for me, an ordinary day in this lifetime.

My favouriteplace for my favourite-food -Som Tam

The kitchen might be a bit different from the standard we're used to but I'm telling you -great! This is the beauty of the thaicuisine. Observe the cat in the bin looking for some fishbones

My favourite baby watching Met -the cat when he is eating

The cat got hit by a car, ran away for three weeks, came back and his leg had healed, although not the proper way. The leg is now poiting in the "wrong" direction.

My wonderful islraelian friend Sh and me enjoying the Som Tam

Until next time
xoxoxo

Manifesting

Streetlife
-Food comes to the one who expects in silence. Original Thai home cooked meals -thank you Kim for a beautiful lunch with the street as my table.

The sun is hot today. Had to leave the beach for cooler areas.

Yesterday yellow curry, a cpl of singahs nd mint-shisha on the beach. High demands on a Israelian way! Almost everything for free (how could u say no?). But what happened with the detox?

This blog is mainly to bring up to the surface how we all struggle with our own existence and beings, trying to share stories with the intention to inspire -if only just a single soul. And maybe I might be a hippie in ones eyes, a gypsy in anothers, or just totally wierd, but ofc everything I'd about balance. Being human and enough irresponsible once in a while is ofc as important and a part of being alive! Everything is always up to oneself. Take the best of it all.

Back to enjoying my coffee and my lovely methol-cigarett!

Do the same and enjoy every second of this day Angels!

*Bisou Beijo Beso Puss Kisses*

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My favourite day!

-What day is it?
-Today
-Oh, my favourite day!
[Pooh nd Piglet]
Goodnight Lemon! xo

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I'm like a bird

Intuitive healing -soul massage

My face with fake thai-flowers in my hair is officially spread arnd Wellington.

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Being or Doing

Being or doing. Two different states of living. Playing with the thought of going back to Sweden to work and save money for next adventure turned out to be too soon for now. I realized that it would be a decision built up on fears -fear of surrendering, fear of trust and fear of not being in control -nor having enough money to live or even survive. In this circus that's been going on in my mind I forgot about my dreams and desires. I lost my heart and myself to my ego and forgot about the purpose I am living for -to love and to serve people around me which for the moment is done by my travels and the situations I find myself in here -in this specific place, in this specific time. Everything is already perfect.

But as we all know, everything is always in movement and with movement comes change. I struggle with the sensation of feeling trapped, trapped in commitments and expectations, but regardless of where I am, this is a challenge I will take with me wherever I go. Then we come to another important lesson in life -Acceptance.
I accept my situation and I embrace it. For my self-journey I choose Being instead of Doing. The "easy" but "hard" way where there will still be space enough to continue my inner journey.

So before next change, it will take another amount of weeks or months before I return "home".

I just finished my course in Reiki and Seichem healing which has been an awesome couple of days. My teacher, Ella, is the one that introduced me to Thetahealing 1,5 years ago. And when we met again I knew from that exact moment that I was here to do what I wasn't ready for last year. For you not familiar with Reiki it is kind of a non-physical healing energy. Except the learnings I am as well going through a 21 days Reikidetox which involves chakrabalancing and a lots of emotions -as always. Wonderful!

G left to a temple in Bangkok to learn about buddhism and the power of silence. It is a good space for both of us to discover new parts of our beings.
After creating yet another community of wonderful souls -my present family, I find the decision to leave to haad tien and the sanctuary not in my choice anymore. I am surprised to admit that I am over what I haven't been through yet. But this is me -Welcome to my Gipsy-life.

What to come..
-So a week of healing, planning and manifesting things is in front of me. Then I'll leave to Bkk, we go to Pao and our thaifamily (and hopefully back for my adoptive thai-brothers wedding in nov). After that, probably leaving the country somehow for a Visa-run and then -a lovely return to Chiang Mai.

-As it seems for now :P

xoxo

Serving and Loving

My precious equal xo enjoying every second

Manifest a trimmer -and it comes to your door!

Every child belongs to us

Streetlife -Kim is practising her dreads-skills

Beautiful S in her being

Just an ordinary day -Beautiful Sh 

The hut of arts and expressions -S & Sh

Streetlife
-A sharing moment and homecooked thai-breakfast

Sun is off on Sundays?

Back in beach-mode and just back from a morning-run along haadrin beach now enjoying the fresh pineapple, the tasty watermelon and powerful bananas that grows so naturally in Thailand. And a cpl of toasts to not be too healthy.

After a beautiful catch-up, a lot of love, as usual, and an introduction to the "wildlife" in Bangkok -Khao San Rd, we took the train, simple as (hmm), to suratthani to then continue by boat to Koh Phangan.  It's insane how they miscalculate everything but still manage to keep track of you, all lost and alone, in the middle of nothing, in this, what feels like, enormous country.
 So with a 3 hours delayed train (thank god we were on it cus we got a good sleep) we ofc missed the boat and got picked up by a private car who took us to a place to wait for a bus, to leave us somewhere else, to wait for another bus to take us to the boat and so on....

Whatever you ask and whoever you ask, whenever, there is never an answer. It's either "Oh, very very long time" "Very very far", "Can not" or "Okay". The meaning of these lines will forever be a mystery but the beautiful thing about Thailand is that Everything is Possible (it really is). Just always keep in mind, that what you plan and expect, is not gonna turn out the way you thought. Not a country for controlfreaks.

 So -24 hours later, exhausted and disgusting as... , and we ended up, over our budget, on Delight resort, Haadrin *Vinkar till JiJi å Brorsan*
 There was not a cell of my body that had the energy to walk arnd and look for a decent place within our budget after that trip. (And poor G, he had just landed after a 26 hours journey from NZ as well).

Anyone realize how far away NZ is? Whow..

So being back here obviously brings out memories and sensations in my being, connected to things that were parts of the major change in my life last year. Many of you already knows what I am talking about and I have chosen not to mention it on this blog that much cus it's been a challenge I've had to deal with myself. I used to be surprised that things didn't turn out the way I predicted them to, but today I see the reasons behind and how I needed every single happening and emotion to take me to where I am today.

 I was surprised when I walked passed my favourite massage-place when this beautiful woman looks and me, runs towards me to hug me and asks about me and my brother. Oh my.. Then she gave me a massage, and she remembers my body as if it was yesterday. "Same usual?!" and I got my Alli-special <3

Besides this, not much going on. We try to live on curiousity in the moment but my ego and fears are forcing me to plan the nextcoming months. Anyways we are preparing for Vipassana in a temple north of BKK (silent meditation retreat) and Reiki-courses.
As you might remember, I mentioned Vipassana in Auckland a cpl of months ago . I obviously didnt do it (thats why I havent told u), because of many reasons. And I am still not doing it, just here as a support, because to use the techniques that I am used to, is absolutely forbidden. As well, as an old prisoner of anxiety and panicattacks, I am not recommended  to do it, even though I am in total control (on this level). Maybe these are just excuses for my own fears. But thats Okay. Still no Vipassana :P

(Will, I know you'd say that I need to do it, just because i fear it. But no, still no.. ) xo

Okay, end of rainseason, not that sunny, but warm enough! <3

Bisou my loved ones!
xxxxxxx