Home away from home: Being or Doing

Being or doing. Two different states of living. Playing with the thought of going back to Sweden to work and save money for next adventure turned out to be too soon for now. I realized that it would be a decision built up on fears -fear of surrendering, fear of trust and fear of not being in control -nor having enough money to live or even survive. In this circus that's been going on in my mind I forgot about my dreams and desires. I lost my heart and myself to my ego and forgot about the purpose I am living for -to love and to serve people around me which for the moment is done by my travels and the situations I find myself in here -in this specific place, in this specific time. Everything is already perfect.

But as we all know, everything is always in movement and with movement comes change. I struggle with the sensation of feeling trapped, trapped in commitments and expectations, but regardless of where I am, this is a challenge I will take with me wherever I go. Then we come to another important lesson in life -Acceptance.
I accept my situation and I embrace it. For my self-journey I choose Being instead of Doing. The "easy" but "hard" way where there will still be space enough to continue my inner journey.

So before next change, it will take another amount of weeks or months before I return "home".

I just finished my course in Reiki and Seichem healing which has been an awesome couple of days. My teacher, Ella, is the one that introduced me to Thetahealing 1,5 years ago. And when we met again I knew from that exact moment that I was here to do what I wasn't ready for last year. For you not familiar with Reiki it is kind of a non-physical healing energy. Except the learnings I am as well going through a 21 days Reikidetox which involves chakrabalancing and a lots of emotions -as always. Wonderful!

G left to a temple in Bangkok to learn about buddhism and the power of silence. It is a good space for both of us to discover new parts of our beings.
After creating yet another community of wonderful souls -my present family, I find the decision to leave to haad tien and the sanctuary not in my choice anymore. I am surprised to admit that I am over what I haven't been through yet. But this is me -Welcome to my Gipsy-life.

What to come..
-So a week of healing, planning and manifesting things is in front of me. Then I'll leave to Bkk, we go to Pao and our thaifamily (and hopefully back for my adoptive thai-brothers wedding in nov). After that, probably leaving the country somehow for a Visa-run and then -a lovely return to Chiang Mai.

-As it seems for now :P

xoxo